Posts Tagged ‘spirituality’

‘I won’t join in the procession that’s speaking their peace.
Using five dollar words while praising his integrity.
And just cause he’s gone it doesn’t change the fact:
He was a bastard in life thus a bastard in death.’
-Death Cab for Cutie

I used to have an excuse for the assholes. I used to say, ‘Oh, I’m not any better than them’ or ‘Maybe they are just having a bad day’ or ‘I don’t know their history.’ Not anymore. How can someone claim Christianity and yet not have the most basic human decency? There is no kindness. There is no empathy. There is no grace. I have no patience for this any longer. To claim Christianity is a dangerous game that requires a higher calling. ‘But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.’ It is quite simple; do you have any of these traits? Do you know a Christian who has none of these traits? Does this not upset you? It seems to me this is basic Christianity. Christianity 101 if you will. If you cannot allow Christ to change you on this most basic level, then why proclaim Christianity? Your Christianity is a facade and a religion. And I’m tired of apologizing for you. Too many so-called Christians are cheapening the radical nature of true, life altering Christianity. And they are doing it not through their theology or by some grand gesture. They are just simply being assholes. Do us all a favor and stop calling yourself a Christian. I’m done.


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I don’t believe in God like I once did. Instead of being my Father he has become a distant concept I’d rather not face. I’m too lost and alone to understand Love. How I long for the days of unrelenting faith. No matter the circumstances. No matter the doubts. What must I do to inherit eternal life? I’m afraid I don’t know anymore. I want God but I don’t want God. What have I become? What has brought me on this path? Sin and distraction. It is clear the seed has fallen amongst the thorns. Yet I am so choked by these thorns that I don’t see a way out. Or rather I don’t believe there is a way out. I guess my desperate prayer to this distant concept called God is a prayer to overcome my unbelief. Somehow. Someway. Because I recognize my need. And I probably should be very grateful for this feeling of need because I think this feeling of need is hope. And isn’t that what we all need? Hope. In this confusing chaotic place.

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What if I gave up the thing I love the most to completely and wholeheartedly serve God? What then could I become? Oh the possibilities! My Father and I could become one. I could finally have the eyes to see that this is all an illusion. I am a shadow of the real but only because I hide in the shadow. And you cannot be in the shadow without being in darkness. Kierkegaard said, ‘The purity of heart is to want one thing.’ And that one thing is God. He should be all I want because ultimately he is all there is anyway. Why not gouge out the eyes of periphery? Only God and only purity! But I hold on to the thing I love the most. Don’t we all? I clutch it with all my heart and with all my soul and with all my strength and with all my mind. But should not these qualities be reserved for God? He is a jealous God, but maybe he will allow me to love this thing knowing that I will be destroyed by it. In his infinite wisdom he knows that destruction will lead me to crave resurrection. And where can I find resurrection but in Christ alone? I will step out of the shadow and into light. God will have my love again. I will be ready to serve. Now, of course, I could have made my life much easier by giving up the thing I love the most at the very beginning. I could have suffered much less. Alas, I am a stupid human being. God have mercy.

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God will break you. He will make you realize he is all you need. And all this periphery you think you need will become nothing. God is your Maker and Author. How could anything or anyone else completely satisfy you? This God of love will destroy you. When this fleeting satisfaction from everything that you think is permanent fades away, he will be there and his love will invade. And this love is so powerful that you’ll be brought to tears. You’ll fall to your knees in shame and praise. This holy God will cut you down. He will make you unholy and that is a good thing. Give him glory.

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I drove home from work. I drove home from meaninglessness. But your Spirit descended. And I remembered that you’re real. I remembered your love. I found meaning.

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My Christ, I am Pilate. What is truth? I cannot find it in this place. I look around and see the meaninglessness of it all: the chasing after money and fame and whatever else catches the eye. I become trapped in it. I think if I just have this or do this I will finally find my purpose. And I attain and attain, but I soon discover none of it satisfies. This world is a shadow of the real. I read your words and come close to the truth, but I cannot fully grasp it. So why am I here? Why are we all here? You are the hinge of history. Everything and everyone depends on you. I cannot believe you are a lunatic. I cannot believe you are a liar. I have to believe you are Lord. But why can I not be with you now? Why must I be stuck in this world between worlds where questions are never answered? My soul longs for you as the smoke and mirrors of this place lead me astray. False promises are my gods, but strip back the surface and I find nothing. Meaningless! Meaningless! Everything is meaningless! Can you not comeback, Christ? What are you waiting for? I need you. I want you. You are the author. You are the truth. And I reluctantly crucify you.

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‘Two Discourses of God and Man’ by Søren Kierkegaard

‘For the highest of human tasks is for a man to allow himself to become completely persuaded that he can of himself do nothing, absolutely nothing.’

‘But in the heavens above, my reader, dwells the God who can do all things; or rather, he dwells everywhere, though men fail to perceive his presence.’

‘And the life of each human being who does not know himself, is in a deeper sense mere delusion.’

‘There is no deception when that which can disappoint us does disappoint us, but rather must we say that there is a deception when it does not.’

‘This very minute everything may be changed, and whoever does not discover this truth is always engaged in basing his life upon what is uncertain.’

‘Alas, there are many who live in all other respects without a concern for God, but who nevertheless do not omit to go to church. What a strange contradiction!’

‘Nothing can take the stillness from you except yourself.’

‘It was terrible experience when wonder vanished from life, and man despaired of himself. But it is quite as terrible for a man to know all this and more, and yet not to have experienced it; and it is most terrible that a man may know everything, and yet not have begun upon the doing of the least.’

‘He is no longer intent upon finding the place where the treasure is, for this is right at hand; he no longer seeks to find the place where God is, nor is he engaged in striving to come nearer to him, for God is at hand, quite near him, near him everywhere, in every moment omnipresent.’

‘Learn first how to be alone, and you will doubtless also learn the true worship of God, which is to think highly of God and humbly of yourself.’

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‘Crazy Love: Overwhelmed by a Relentless God’ by Francis Chan

‘The wise man comes to God without saying a word and stands in awe of Him.’

‘When we love God because we feel we should love Him, instead of genuinely loving out of our true selves, we have forgotten who God really is.’

‘Even though I glimpse God’s holiness, I am still dumb enough to forget that life is all about God and not about me at all.’

‘The greatest knowledge we can ever have is knowing God treasures us.’

‘The reality is that, whether we acknowledge our wealth or not, being rich is a serious disadvantage spiritually.’

‘I need God to help me love God.’

‘Something is wrong when our lives make sense to unbelievers.’

‘We like finding refuge in what we already have rather than in what we hope God will provide.’

‘The world needs Christians who don’t tolerate the complacency of their own lives.’

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Sometimes darkness sways

And sometimes it stays

We must have a light

To win the fight

Battle every single day!

Follow the world or the way

The choice is ours alone

Truth can be known


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‘You of little faith.’

You can move mountains!

But you’d rather explain mountains.

Faith is humility. Faith defies logic.

The idea of God is absurd. You can’t wrap your mind around it. And you never will. You must humble yourself to the supernatural by destroying logic. The unexplainable remains unexplainable through your faith that it doesn’t need to be explained.

Do you ever think about where you live? You live on a tiny blue and green planet floating in an infinite universe. Where are you? How is this possible? Did you know that the earth has the exact axial tilt needed for life?

One degree different and you would not exist.

And do you ever think about the heart beating in your chest? Who started that beat and how does it continue? How are you alive?

One little muscle. Thump…thump…thump.

Faith or explanation? You can try to explain the earth and the heart but only to a point. Explanation always ends.

And where explanation ends, faith begins.

The mountains can be moved. The choice is yours.

Godisnowhere. What do you see?

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