Posts Tagged ‘light’

What if I gave up the thing I love the most to completely and wholeheartedly serve God? What then could I become? Oh the possibilities! My Father and I could become one. I could finally have the eyes to see that this is all an illusion. I am a shadow of the real but only because I hide in the shadow. And you cannot be in the shadow without being in darkness. Kierkegaard said, ‘The purity of heart is to want one thing.’ And that one thing is God. He should be all I want because ultimately he is all there is anyway. Why not gouge out the eyes of periphery? Only God and only purity! But I hold on to the thing I love the most. Don’t we all? I clutch it with all my heart and with all my soul and with all my strength and with all my mind. But should not these qualities be reserved for God? He is a jealous God, but maybe he will allow me to love this thing knowing that I will be destroyed by it. In his infinite wisdom he knows that destruction will lead me to crave resurrection. And where can I find resurrection but in Christ alone? I will step out of the shadow and into light. God will have my love again. I will be ready to serve. Now, of course, I could have made my life much easier by giving up the thing I love the most at the very beginning. I could have suffered much less. Alas, I am a stupid human being. God have mercy.


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There is anguish in the world. This anguish can lead to God or no God. Even though my doubts about God are greater than they have ever been I still have to believe he exists. If he does not than my anguish is all there is. I am consumed by it. I am consumed by the unfairness of it. Some people don’t know anguish. They live in their happy little worlds and live their happy little lives. But then there are those of us who seem to breathe the anguish in. It surrounds us. God needs to exist. Without God there is only cruel imbalance between happiness and anguish among us. I can’t accept this. Though, sometimes I do. I sit in the dark, read Nietzsche, and believe this is all there is; unbearable anguish in a meaningless universe. But something miraculous always seems to happen in these situations. This thing called hope appears like a light in the dark. And isn’t having hope better than accepting the squalor of our nothingness? Doesn’t hope point to a God who is with those who anguish? Now of course we can choose to believe that there is no God because what kind of God would allow anguish in the first place? I greatly sympathize with this question. But again I think hope is better. Even if God is a lie at least I have hope. Ultimately the point I’m making is that my anguish is all the evidence I need for God. I suffer therefore I am and therefore God is. And God is because I need him to be.

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Inspired by and dedicated to the children of the Hands and Feet Project in Jacmel, Haiti

We are all children

Unique but the same

Images of love

Under one name

Smiles from the soul

Counted and known

Full of purpose

We are not alone

The light shines

Glorious to the end

Nothing can stop us

Forever we ascend

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Sometimes darkness sways

And sometimes it stays

We must have a light

To win the fight

Battle every single day!

Follow the world or the way

The choice is ours alone

Truth can be known


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‘Velvet Elvis: Repainting the Christian Faith’ by Rob Bell

‘The way of Jesus is not about religion; it’s about reality.’

‘Our words aren’t absolutes. Only God is absolute.’

‘The moment God is figured out with nice neat lines and definitions, we are no longer dealing with God. We are dealing with somebody we made up.’

‘Christian is a great noun and a poor adjective.’

‘To be a part of the church was to join a countercultural society that was partnering with God to create a new kind of culture, right under the nose of the caesars. These Christians made sure everybody in their midst had enough to eat. They made sure everybody was able to pay their bills. They made sure there was enough to go around. The resurrection for them was not an abstract spiritual concept; it was a concrete social and economic reality. God raised Jesus from the dead to show the world that Jesus is Lord, and it is through his power and his example and his Spirit that the world is restored.’

‘The church doesn’t exist for itself; it exists to serve the world. It is not ultimately about the church; it’s about all the people God wants to bless through the church. When the church loses sight of this, it loses its heart.’

‘Why blame the dark for being dark? It is far more helpful to ask why the light isn’t as bright as it could be.’

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‘Attachment leads to jealousy. The shadow of greed that is. Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose.’ – Yoda[1]

Anakin Skywalker became Darth Vader partly because of attachment to his wife, Padmé.[2] He was afraid that she was going to die so he completely gave himself to the dark side, thinking that would save her. The irony is that she died of a broken heart because of his turn to the dark side. He killed her out of a desire to save her. If he had let go of his fear, she would not have died.

Do not be attached to a relationship. You can become an angry, bitter, and selfish person. Don’t be afraid to lose someone. You do not own that person. ‘But until I let you go, I didn’t know you were never mine at all.’[3]

Do not be attached to the past. Don’t be like grandpa: ‘Well back in my day….’ The past is gone, never to return. The only thing you have is right now. You can’t be attached to the memories of yesteryear. You can’t believe the lie that all your best moments are in the past. You still have this moment. The past is not an excuse to ignore the present. ‘All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.’[4]

Do not be attached to comfort. Change is good. Free the fear to find the faith.

Do not be attached to money. All money is Monopoly money. It is the root of all evil and has destroyed humanity.[5] It will not buy you happiness.

Do not be attached to the world. ‘We live in but a shadow of the real.’[6] Everything you see in this place is temporary. It will not last. Look beyond to permanence.

Do not be attached to yourself. You are not special. You are not different. We are all the same. We all have beating hearts. Love one another.

What else are you attached to? You must let go of these attachments to move forward. We must all let go. If we don’t, like Anakin, we will destroy the very thing we sought to save. We will not have light in our lives but only darkness.

We must not have attachments to anything.

In conclusion, here are the words of someone who is even wiser than Yoda. He also teaches against attachments: ‘Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves a son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it.’[7]

[1] Yoda says this to Anakin in ‘Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith.’ He should have listened!

[2] ‘He turns into Darth Vader because he gets attached to things. He can’t let go of his mother; he can’t let go of his girlfriend. He can’t let go of things. It makes you greedy. And when you’re greedy, you are on the path to the dark side, because you fear you’re going to lose things, that you’re not going to have the power you need.’ – George Lucas (TIME Magazine interview, 2002)

[3] Lyric from the song ‘My Exit, Unfair’ by mewithoutYou

[4] The words of Gandalf the Grey in ‘The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring’

[5] 1 Timothy 6:9-10

[6] Lyric from the song ‘Of Dust And Nations’ by Thrice. Referencing C.S. Lewis.

[7] Matthew 10:37-39

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