Archive for April, 2013

I have a recurring dream. I stand with a woman in front of a church. All my family and friends are there. The pastor asks, ‘Do you take this woman as your wife?’ I reply, ‘I do not.’

My interpretation is that I don’t want to get married. I will inevitably not want to be with the woman that I choose. I don’t trust my own free choice. The evidence is in my past relationships. So who can I trust? I can trust God. I give my free choice to him. I don’t want to get married, but I will if it’s his will. Like Adam, he must bring me Eve. God’s choice is far better than mine.

I don’t want to be with a woman for purely superficial reasons. ‘She’s pretty.’ ‘She likes the same things as me.’ ‘She’s interesting.’ These things cannot be the basis for marriage. A foundation based on worldly things will crumble and fall. Rather than the superficial, give me the supernatural. Give me a woman sent from God and marriage will have the right foundation.

I must add that this is not all about me. There is a woman out there who also wants God to choose. Am I the kind of person God would send? I am required to concentrate on my own character before I can ever be concerned with marriage.

Now, going back to my dream. Note that my family and friends are there. Why? I think because they want me to be happy. The problem is that they don’t know what will make me happy. With good intentions, they just want me to find a ‘good woman.’ But I don’t want a ‘good woman.’ Only God is good. So in his goodness by his will, he will send me a wife or he will not. He knows what will make me happy. Do I have the courage to stand before those closest to me and say, ‘I do not,’ to a woman that they think is good but God did not choose?

My final thought is that marriage scares me. In a culture with the highest divorce rate ever, shouldn’t it? This is why I have come to the realization that I don’t want it. I give marriage to God. He will give it back or keep it. I am content either way because I know that I must trust him and not myself.


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‘Crazy Love: Overwhelmed by a Relentless God’ by Francis Chan

‘The wise man comes to God without saying a word and stands in awe of Him.’

‘When we love God because we feel we should love Him, instead of genuinely loving out of our true selves, we have forgotten who God really is.’

‘Even though I glimpse God’s holiness, I am still dumb enough to forget that life is all about God and not about me at all.’

‘The greatest knowledge we can ever have is knowing God treasures us.’

‘The reality is that, whether we acknowledge our wealth or not, being rich is a serious disadvantage spiritually.’

‘I need God to help me love God.’

‘Something is wrong when our lives make sense to unbelievers.’

‘We like finding refuge in what we already have rather than in what we hope God will provide.’

‘The world needs Christians who don’t tolerate the complacency of their own lives.’

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Sometimes darkness sways

And sometimes it stays

We must have a light

To win the fight

Battle every single day!

Follow the world or the way

The choice is ours alone

Truth can be known


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