Archive for January, 2012

I can’t date anybody because if I did I would be dishonest with myself and the girl. Everything that romance inevitably leads to I want nothing to do with. Kids. Money. Responsibility. Career. Drama. These are just a few things. The bottom line is that dating could eventually lead to marriage and all of this stuff. Now I suppose I could date every girl I want and just end it when it becomes too much. But that’s incredibly mean and unfair. The agony of it all is that I want to fall in love. Badly! But I know that those feelings will fade quickly. Relationships always with time become too comfortable. Too mediocre. So if I know the ending than why begin at all? I don’t want to break any girl’s heart. This is the frustrating part. These situations are thrust upon me where I’m expected to pursue a girl that likes me. I have to fight these expectations. It’s difficult! It’s painful! I could give in and just date her for the thrill. But I know that it will not last because I know my heart will never fully be hers. I refuse to play the dating game that most of our culture plays. I refuse to settle for something less. There is something more than love and romance and marriage. I also shouldn’t date anybody because it’s a way for me to feel secure about myself. This is very wrong! Because when I end up saying “I love you” to a girl I’m really saying “I love myself.” I should only feel secure through G-d. I don’t understand what girls see in me. I don’t understand why they come after me. It’s interesting because I mostly ignore them! Now I ignore them because I’m shy but also because I’m really not interested! It’s so easy to get sucked into it all. You find out a girl likes you and it makes you feel so good. Remember “I love myself.” So it’s easy to forget all of your beliefs and convictions when someone makes you feel good. But those good feelings are gone before you know it! They don’t last! And where your heart truly lies is finally revealed. Your true self finally comes back. And then you wonder “What have I done?!” You’ve been a liar. This poor girl’s heart will be broken. Your heart will be broken. I can’t date anybody! It’s too much! It’s too scary! I’m not willing to give up everything that I am for the pursuit of something so unpredictable and fickle. Relationships are just not good for me. They make me an awful person. I become someone else. My prayer is that G-d will help me and protect me in tempting situations where dating a girl becomes possible. I know the truth! I must remember it! And I pray that G-d sends her the truth too.


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“I would warn Orlando that you’re right in the way of some serious hurricanes, and I don’t think I’d be waving those flags in God’s face if I were you. This is not a message of hate — this is a message of redemption. But a condition like this will bring about the destruction of your nation. It’ll bring about terrorist bombs; it’ll bring earthquakes, tornadoes, and possibly a meteor.”[1] –Pat Robertson, on “gay days” at Disney World

Pat is confused.  The above message is full of hate.

Would Jesus say something like this? Would He want His followers to say something like this?

I don’t think G-d is going to destroy Orlando or this country because of a few gay people at a theme park. That’s stupid. That’s completely contradictory to His character.

We must remember that G-d sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.[2] Hurricanes don’t care about gay people. They’re coming through Orlando regardless.

Pat needs to watch the weather channel. He also needs to stop spreading the wrong gospel.

Pat Robertson needs to shut up.

Christians need to shut up.

The epistle of James declares, “Those who consider themselves religious and yet do not keep a tight rein on their tongues deceive themselves, and their religion is worthless. Religion that G-d our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.”[3]

Our religion becomes worthless when we endlessly talk about things we really have no clue about. How dare we speak for G-d! Who are we?! We know nothing! We should recognize that “those who know don’t talk, those who talk don’t know.”[4]

Our actions are far more important.[5]

We are called to help the orphans and widows. This is true religion! Instead of being bold with our tongues, we should be bold with our actions. Instead of casting the first stone,[6] we should have compassion.

Warning! I’m about to write something that might be considered shocking to some.

Jesus would ride Space Mountain with gay people at Disney World.

Shut up and do the same.

[2] Matthew 5:45

[3] James 1:26-27

[4] I first came across this quote from Lao Tzu’s Tao Te Ching in the lyrics of a song by mewithoutYou called “goodbye, I!”

[5] I’m reminded of the quote widely attributed to Saint Francis of Assisi: “Preach the Gospel always, and if necessary, use words.”

[6] John 8:1-11

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